According to my Fitocracy profile, my last real workout was on June 26th. June 26th was two days before my June minimester finals. June 26th was also two days before our family beach vacation. June 26th also made day 5 of my "low carb" diet. June 26th was also the week that I was premenstrual, meaning that I was super depressed and whiny, because I ALWAYS get like that the week before my period. It's not a good feeling. So while on our beach vacation, I used being premenstrual as an excuse to blow through my low carb diet, and devoured everything in sight. Hey, isn't that what you're supposed to do on vacation anyway? "Once I get back home and out of this premenstrual funk I'll go back to the gym." Ha. Ha. Ha.
So after our wonderful beach vacation, I didn't go to the gym for the rest of the week. I blamed my actual period this time, not my premenstrual hormones. Then the week after that (July 9th) I used the start of July term as an excuse. (July classes run from 7:00 A.M. to 12:15 P.M.) School four days a week plus work five days a week? No way. "I'm too tired to work out!" I was still paying no mind to my diet. I told myself constantly yesterday (July 15th) that since I didn't have work, class, or the hellion, I would go to the gym and make it kick my ass. Needless to say, I literally laid on the couch all day. Which, may I add, is something that I NEVER do. It felt nice to be lazy all day, but it's not something that I could grow accustomed to doing.
So here I am, typing up the past lazy twenty days of my life. Aside from being a lazy fuck, the main reason I haven't been to the gym in the last twenty days is because I (ashamedly) was too focused on the competitiveness of Fitocracy. On the website, you earn points for every exercise you do, and my workout quickly changed from working out to get toned and fit to working out in order to compete with my real friends-- the ones that I actually know-- on Fitocracy. When these friends quit working out, I continued to work out, but was now competing against my other friends on Fitocracy, the ones I know through the Fitocracy network. Because of this, I quickly realized that I wasn't seeing the results I had started to see before I went all Bad Sportsmanship Panda on everyone. (Because I wasn't doing any set target area workout, I was just doing things to earn the most amount of points on Fitocracy.)
I had this grand scheme in my head that I was going to hire a personal trainer in order to get back into shape and still be able to compete against other Fitocrats. I was even going to sell my gym membership and buy a membership at another gym because my bodybuilder friend was willing to work with me. But then he told me something that slapped me into reality, "Crystal, you don't need me. You already know what you need to do." So, with this realization, I understood that it was time for me to come out into the open with the reason and admit my shame: that I've been a bad sport, and haven't been focused on my fitness goals like I used to be.
While some could say that a possible solution would be to stop using Fitocracy, I do not want to rid myself from it because it is such a great website: the people are supportive and knowledgeable, everyone is willing to give advice when asked, and more importantly, it's such a great positive atmosphere. There is never any pessimism; it's always optimistic and supportive, which is what most people need when undertaking fitness goals. It's a great website and I have no intentions of deactivating my membership.
I just wrote this blog to ask forgiveness from my fellow Fitocrats. Now that I'm no longer in denial and have come to terms with my laziness due to my bad sportsmanship, I'm ready to get back into the gym and start kicking some ass. Can you forgive me?
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